My friend Kat just got engaged. I’m so envious of her. She’s the co-director of her own dance troupe in San Francisco (they’re awesome), and she’s marrying the other director. She’s so cool and cute and making art in a great city… Oh my God, I wish I could be like her.
I just realized the reason I feel so shitty is goddamn nicotine withdrawal. Fuck my life, I’ve got to quit soon. By the time I turn 25, I’ve got to quit.
"You came to me to learn the pleasure of life and the pleasure of art. Perhaps I am chosen to teach you something much more wonderful, the meaning of sorrow, and its beauty."
Oscar Wilde, De Profundis